Considering

Lately, i though a lots.
I considering and think a lots.
What happen between us,
Why m i changing,
How, why, what, where, when....

I felt pressure from him.
I feel he start controlling me
The way i wearing my clothes,
The way i talking,
The way i going with my friends,
The way i changing,
The way my life going,
The way i treating him,
The place i going,
The wording i express to public.....

Honestly, i m happy with my changing,
Compare with previously who too dependent on him.
May b i really forget him while i m enjoying,

I start treat him cool,
n placing him far from me.
I start not appreciate him,
thinking he treat me good is a must.
While i start to be evil,
I become hot tempered in front of him,
I become naughty and stubborn,
I believe i not understanding him enough,
I did not consider his feeling,
I just do whatever i want without doubt.

I believe he love and sayang me very much,
He saw i m changing,
He start to worry me,
Wondering why i m treating him cool,
He unable to except me,
as i changing fast.
I expose myself a lot,
I m growing and having lot different thinking.

I know he love me very much,
He willing to do n have a try whatever that i request.
He willing to scarify, patient to me.
He teach me a lot especially life lesson.
I know i have failed to b a good gf since long time ago.
I know i should not complain n compare,
Yet it have happened. I treat him really unfair n make him suffer.

I admit, i m playful,
While he is safety person.
There have much different between us,
The wavelength or thinking,
The life style we going daily,
The way we solve problem,
The food or meal v having,
The way of communication,
The choice v chosen,
It probability course by different family background, the environment
v expose to, the experiences, the persons around, the growing ages...

Lately, all i have consider,
Thinking what i want,
What i feel,
What decision i going to decide,
What should i do,
How m i going to face it,
How should i going to solve it,
How m i going with him n others.

I must b fair to him,
I must listen to my heart,
I must give changes to myself,
I must clear what i m doing,
I must no regret........