I m Learning To Be Independent

Ya..he have chose to went back Kuantan to work on his career. It has been 10 months. When i get the message i consider a lots of stuffs, but those was the easy going problem. I take it easy, my though was simple, i thinking is okay for me. He have his life, his job at Kuantan, while i am studying hard at KL. Thinking that we are working hard, we both loving each other, we will meet once we have done our stuffs.

Unfortunately, it does not works that easy. At first, i meet him almost every weekend. Lie to my parent, just to meet him, but i know what am i doing. As times going, he become more busy on his job, while i am busy on my studies. Therefore, we start less contacts, we even does not have one conversation for one day.

I trying to be strong, thinking he is busy i should be kind to him, more understand him. He is freshman to the societies, he need times to use to it. So i try to focus on my studies, ya, i was about to be success. But i have use to dependent on him. I use to talk the most with him everyday. Whatever stuffs, what i doing, what problems i facing, and so on i just talk to him. At that moment, i not allow to do so. I have get myself some part time job to fulfill my time, i am busy with those stuffs yet i am missing him.

I feel lonely, helpless, no one to relied on. I start thinking am i too dependent to him...I feel sufer, so i start of be independent. So how should i start? I should have my own life, own friends, own stuffs, own work to do. I notice that i does not have friend, that course me feel lonely, so i start to join my close1. i m so jlous that sum of my friend, they have lot others friend around them, they are so happy and full of joyful. I m curious why it does not happen on me. I would like to like them, i know myself can not have a best friend, but i wan to try for a lot of good friends.

Thinking and learning the way to be friendly, i start join them yet i feel lonely. I think i really too dependent on him, why m i so suffer without him. I hate that kind of feeling, why i not flexible enough? i changes....I WAN Changessssssssss.........i Wan to b Independent.......I WAN to survive although i m alone without him.....in this moment i have to figure out myself to save myself....i not blaming he, this is the way how v survive.

西东恋的幸福

2009年的最后一天。。。

2010年的到来对我来说将是世界末日的开始，毕业了，工作了，再也不能好像以前那样，想见你就见你。以前一星期里最少见面三四次，现在却是一个月见一两次。见面数次几倍下降~

思念的感觉无时无刻都浮现在我脑海里，想问。。。

早餐你吃了吗？
今天的你过得好吗？
心里是否有想念我？
功课是否困扰着你？

期待每次电话响起的时候，
听见你那甜美的声音。。。

每次一个人驾车去找你，虽然路程有点寂寞，可是当我想到你会很温柔的帮我按摩时，就会不自禁的笑出来了，拥抱时感受你那暖暖的体温，这幸福的感觉不是写几个字就能形容的。

今天是2010年10月15日，天晴。
不知不觉我们分开两地已有十个月之久，今年里我们发生了很多不愉快的事情，甚至大家都想过分手这两个字。
但是我们依然把对方的手牢牢的握住，谁也不想放。
可是考验才刚刚开始，在2018年来临前，我们还必须经历种种考验，疲倦对我来说是全是借口，放弃是逃避，是懦夫的行为。

所以我绝对不会放弃你~
因为我拥有了一个愿意和我一起坚持努力的人，为我们的未来加油。。。

我爱你！

小男孩与小女孩的爱情故事

2007年的十六岁全国赛遇见了你，印象深刻的是你那迷人的笑容，那傻傻的样子，原来所谓的一见钟情就是这意思，电视剧常有的故事竟然发生在我身上，真不可思议。哈哈^^

2008年1月某某天

突然接到你的电话问候时，当时的我真不知所措，手忙脚乱，可是我们却聊了很久，也让我们对对方留下了印象。

2008年1月20号

我们第一次牵手，我们第一次拥抱，我们第一次接吻，第一次接触你的心，就算我晚年得了老人痴呆症，也是我终身都不会忘记的。

2009年1月20号

我们爱情故事的一周年。。。你的温柔，体谅，支持，为我带来无限的动力和精神。记得陪你一起背日文听写时，一起熬夜的时候，虽然累，但是却是别人想像不到的另一种享受。

2009年2月14号

一生难忘的情人节。。。心灵上的结合让我门的心更加坚固，一年里所发生的事让我们更加了解对方~

不知道你是否还记得这些照片吗？我人身不再是我一个人的回忆了，而是我和你共同拥有的甜蜜回忆，遇见你是我最幸福的事~

小女孩，永远爱你~